L'homme [pas vraiment, encore] impeccable.

Thank God I don’t think out loud
Too many thoughts in my head right now
Mostly concerning the moonlight
As it dances across your neck.
I’m out of practice, and you smell like roses.
I’m the mortal soldier, you’re queen of hearts
All that I want is to show you how you you’re nothing like all of them tell you.
To be more than just a cricket on your shoulder,
A little closer.

Feelings choke me
Don’t let me leave without a word
I’ll never give in,
I’ve been letting my mind win the war with my heart. You are timeless
I am a fool in love with time

I’ve always believed in you
Want to be more than that tonight
And live for the moment
But that takes too much pride. You will say what I’ll never have

I’d shape up and put on weight
Cross out my calendar marked to the date
where we’d meet on some mystic veranda
To dance I’d show you skills. I’ve not forgotten. I’d spoil you rotten.
So don’t be afraid,
For better or worse,
Lets dive head-first
We can think about this later when we’re not so jaded. So jaded.
I can’t go on the way I’ve gone forever. A new endeavor is oh so needed and

Feelings scare you
You never look me in the eye
Don’t ever change, I just want you to know the complacency’s always been staged
I was blinded until you opened up my eyes
I’ve always believed in you

Want to be more than that tonight
And live for the moment
But that takes too much pride
You will stay what I’ll
Never have if I tried
Damned if I don’t. What if I died without being with you
I can try all I want
The feelings would taunt saying ‘loser we see through you.’
And forgive me, love
These thoughts are not my own
They were put in my mind by aliens
To keep me home alone.
And forgive me love for wanting you.
Blame it on those eyebrows arching over baby blues
Oh you, oh you…..

And live for the moment but that takes too much pride.
You will stay what I’ll never have.
Oh can you see me now?
Do you hear me now?
Do you see me now?
Could you save me now?
Do you hear me now?
Could you see me now?
Could you save me now?
I’m choking… I’m choking…

-All Choked Up

you’ve got to cry without weeping,

talk without speaking,

scream without raising your voice…

it is a bit bizarre to return, it is like returning to something you have put on pause — put aside for a brief moment yet expect to continue as if the days/weeks/months have simply been a flutter in the wind.  je m’en souviens bien, ah oué, je m’en souviens bien comme toujours, c’est mon défaut je pense — je ne peut pas l’oublier.  c’est characteristique d’un cerveau complex même qu’un cerveau simple, pour ressasser des choses en plus en plus en plus en plus…comme toujours, toujours comme toujours.  ce printempts tiendra des idées nouvelles, mais comme toujours [bien sûr], ils n’existeront pas encore si on ne l’ouvra pas.  to be at peace would be a crime, but alas to suffer it is a punishment beyond compare.  and to not know the matter, well that is outright torture.  mais le printemps vais arriver, merci dieu, peut-être des choses peuvent changer encore…

…to remind you of something, something you once knew but have long since forgotten…

These people round here
Wear beaten down eyes sunk
In smoke dried faces
They’re so resigned to what their fate is
But not us -no not ever-
But not us -not ever-
We are far too young and clever
-Remember-
Too-ra-loo-ra, too-ra-loo-rye, aye
And you’ll hum this tune forever…

trois mois…trois mois…et peut-être quatre mois…

you’ll drive in my car

just tell me we are going somewhere where the stars meet the sky

and all these people with small dreams, are looking up at the big screen

well am I wrong, or am I right…

And when there’s nowhere else to run
Is there room for one more son
These changes ain’t changing me
The gold-hearted boy I used to be.

Over and in, last call for sin
While everyone’s lost, the battle is won
With all these things that I’ve done….